Posted in Thinker

Conflict between me and inner me.

I can listem to him. I can feel him. He sometimes make me do things which I don’t like. He most of the time makes me realize guilty when I have done some wrong. Who is he? My soul or my inner self, I don’t know what to call him. The problem is, outer self has different urges or most of them are conflicting to the urges of inner self. Society sees the outer self. They observe, quantify the actions and behaviours of outer self. They don’t know anything about the whereabouts of inner self. The inner self likes someone then wants to talk to him/her but the outer self is reluctant to make a move. The outer self wants to decorate himself and wants to look presentable to others but the inner self questions the bad qualities and malice self compated looking good outward which looks manipulated and deceiving to him. The inner self wants to be clean, pure, organized, perfect but he doesn’t know what the mess the society has made in this world. Things are not straightforward, simple as this inner self thinks.

Lies have binded the relationships together. And people are afeared of truce. Media has manipulated and misquantified the statistics, history, facts as per their viewers’ tast and likings. The listeners, viewers, spectators are brainwashed and filled with propagandas, lies, misperceptions every single day. They are so loud that their followers don’t listen to their inner self and become hypocritical, sterotypical, judgemental. But lest they are happy, they doesn’t have to realize what they have become or feel guilty.

The people who are routinely made realized by their inner self the life is not so easy. The life is not merry, celebrated,epicurean.  May be such life will be easy for them whose outer self is in peace with inner self. That is, the inner self is satisfied, what the outer self is doing. But for a person like me, the inner self  make me realize guilty often.

Posted in Life

Living someone dreams.

Being an “IT Guy” the time is passing so fast from Monday to Friday but yes these two days Saturday and Sunday are looking long as an Introverted Guy. So, these are the two days when Simr revives his memory. With everything it appears the strings are attached and it takes him into the past. He remembered when he finished his last exam of engineering in June and left for his home to afterall relax. This relaxation was different, he didn’t have to worry about college anymore. College life had ended. But yes then he didn’t got placed in any company so he also has to make strategy. At home he met this person who asked him about the job and told him, he should get a job in Bangalore, as then he can get a chance or excuse to come to this place and will be exploring it. He liked travelling, especially in his car. Simr was speechless, as didn’t know what to say, at that time it was looking hard to imagine about where he will be relocated if get a job. The priority was to clear job interviews first.

But two weeks later, this person passed away. He was young. It was hard time for the family. Simr was trying hard to cope with this loss and beside it the job interviews were not going well. He tried in many companies. Not getting the breakthrough. In December at last he got through and now here he is in Bangalore, the IT City of India. “May be I am living his dream”, Simr talked to himself. Never imagined, this city will become my city. It will become the work city.

May be we all live other’s dreams and expectation at different phases of life. Our mother’s dream, or wife’s dream, or childrens’ dream. The life is not only about our own dreams but the dreams about others around us, because we are social animals. May be today anyone in this world is celebrating someone else’s dream. And I can say no more than this, “Cheers to that”.