Just a By Product..
A practitioner of some sort..
Not an expert of any science..
But I am just an “odd one” of “this” “lot”..
So I left alone..
I breathe alone..
I entered alone..
I shall exit alone..
Without a slight whisper..
Any noise or cries..
Or celebrations or joy..
My being is an “Unplayable Toy”..
Anger, or any vice..
Is not my chosen device..
I live to work..
I work to live..
“They” were condemned thoroughout their lives..
I am not the only one; History is a proof; Truth has to pay the price..
Humiliation, defeat and atrocity..
All I have to face..
The home is not at peace..
How can the Society then, not turn me into disgrace..
I sleep to only wake..
I wake up to only sleep..
No meaning in my actions..
All I does is weep..
Is “Fast” really fast?..
Is “Good” really good?..
Is “Weakness” really weak?..
Well, nothing interest me all..
No food, clothes and place..
Don’t take my words too literally..
Philosophy is not for the lame..
A personality, and existence..
A body, a self, a being..
Does “I” know that “It”, real is?..
Seeing the blind..
Hearing the deaf..
Feeling the non-existent..
Yet carrying on with the whole “It”..
A lone battle..
An empty house..
A shallow social status..
All feels like a burden..
A mess, a mirage..
Like a foul play..
Questioned the questions..
Answered the answers..
Burnt the ashes..
Crossed all the dangers..
“An unusual ride..
A mysterious dive..
A ferocious sight..
Is something which I call life..”
“With lots of agony..
And tears and pain..
People live in delusions..
Spend whole life in vain..
But the time passes..
And so does my words..
My sorrounding mocks..
Yet nobody heard.. “
Coming out of closet is an idiom that means to talk publicly about something you hid about yourself. Mostly it is used by LGBT community, and the idiom itself implies that what kind of reaction you will get from the public upon this new discovery. It will be scary, and possibly unacceptable by the “perfect” people around you. But what about coming out of closet as an introvert. In some places it is met by same kind of response like the ones shared above to LGBT community. There was one aunt who told me once, that I should come out of my shell or I will become an introvert. It is not something you become but you are probably born with. And it becomes stronger and stronger as you grew up and the qualities like listening, quietness, compassion, sensitivity, high realization, self-awareness enshrouds you.
Understanding becomes a great barrier in the interaction of an introverted person to the world. In schools, colleges, relationships, workplaces: the misunderstandings grows wildly like a vine. Your intentions are questioned. Your motives are doubted. Your solitude is not respected in a world where group thinking is honored and revered, where the talkatives take over the world leadership, where the dynamic and spontaneous personalities outshines and overtakes the gloomy characterstics of introvertedness. The world would be a better place if compassion take over. But sadly the ruthless leaders take center stage while the world tear apart in their mighty hands.
There was a time when one narcissist rose in Europe and matched his personal hate into national disgrace and urged the natives to support him on his dire attempt to bring back the glory back when internally he was working on his own greed. Greed to acquire whole of Europe, greed that led to the Second World War, greed that brought more dishonour to Germans than bringing pride. I can feel the same agony now that would have been felt by English or French that time due to same breed of leaders taking over the world from West to East.
The world looks in peril as it lives under the regime of same narcissist leaders, who talks about existence of one kind of people who are natives (myth being the natives are nationalists and patriotic and others don’t care), distributing hatred against people who, for instance, are immigrants and minority groups. In a world where hate spreads faster than love, these leaders and their dumb followers are not leaving any stone unturned in infusing such negativities into the society. Making the environment hostile by controlling the media houses and throwing up hate speeches and negative endorsements into each and every homes through television, is uncommon these days in such countries. Creating and barging on smaller issues rather fighting the most basic problems like poverty, diseases , illiteracy, farmers’ suicides, lack of infrastructure. These leaders have surely taken over with their great art of speaking and convincing people about some problem that doesn’t even exist just to curb the attention from the real problems. By the way, Hitler was also considered a great orator and what a havoc he brought?
Today these leaders are more dangerous than Hitler, because the modern world thrives on social media and internet. The news travels faster from one small place to the whole world. And this medium sadly is overused by such bastards so confidently that the dumb citizens get overcharged with hate when they have misconception that they are behaving patriotic.
The world I crave around me is different than I am thrusted upon in reality.
The contradictions are stronger and the insecurities grow higher in flames.
The questions burn, engulfing the unseen answers with it.
The answers never reveal itself. May be those are just myths.
The solution was never there to the questions which nobody asks but my skeptical mind did.
The ideal world is in my mind and nowhere else.
The conversations, the interactions, the expectations are met in here making me contented with this inner world.
The outer world frightens me with all the enshrouded evils it have within.
So, where is my ideal world, I ask often.
The place where I speak flawlessly, where the peace commences.
The heart break occurences have negligible chances.
The gruesome condition of majority of Indians, middle class families, who are the biggest taxpayers in India, have been a point of big debate for long but without any solution. But on the contrary their condition is worsening as Governments levies more taxes onto them, without matching the expectations this class has on its national leaders and representatives. The demand of electrification, basic infrastructure, cheap and quality education is never met while the taxes are collected properly and ironically transparency is requested from the government on balance sheets of earnings of Indians, but the other way around is promised but never shown a real meaning in Indian history ever by any state. So transparency from taxpayers, but no transparency whatsoever on where this money is invested and spent for the betterment of the society, because we don’t see any improvisation in the world around us. The potholes re appear after every rainwash. The transformers burst every now and then, leaving people into darkness metaphorically we are into darkness since the dawn of independance.
The government looks flabbergasted by the terms digital India and other fascinating words but completely ignoring the fact that judicial and policing system is crumbling badly. The instance of few weeks back, when one of my colleague fall victim of theft in a bus while she was asleep, and the fact that she was denied lodging FIR for the incident, throws a light onto this prevailing darkness here. A country that is doing great due to private firms that are ensuring employability in IT sector and other profitable but privately owned industries doesn’t prove that Government is doing great. Taking credits for such advancements and not properly having any hand in such great feats, looks an old habit of any government that settled here ever.
Finally, the goverment appear to be a person who owns a barren land and doesn’t know what to do anything out of it, sells it to a builder (private businesses) to do anything onto it and just give profit in the form of rent (taxes). That kind of an attitude gives development but it is highly unsustainable, where exploitation of not only natural resources but people happens in no good light. And I am afraid that we are on the same path of a boom that have an inevitable crash at the end due to its unsustainable nature.